I started this blog as a way to put my thoughts in a order. I don't expect to make anything from out of this but I guess I have to give it a try!
So I'm a nineteen-year-old college student and I already feel like all my dreams have been crushed...
I read a lot of books and I go with this quote in my life: "My life is a perfect graveyard of buried hopes"
I don't know if you guys are familiar with this but it's from a book called Anne of Green Gables and I really identify with the character..
Let me tell you a few things!
I study bussiness and tourism in an advance university here in Greece. People always congratulated me on getting in cause, you know, "Once in a life opportunity for you!" and "It's so hard on getting in." and "You will do great in that area cause you are going to be one of the most twenty-one-year-olds from your class,when you graduate, that is going to have a high position job" and all that stuff...
The irony is I never I wanted to go there but I applied for that university to make my family proud and escpecially my Father...
He is a P.E teacher and when he was young, always wanted to get involved in that field but my grandparents couldn't afford it and later on when he could afford it, my mom came along and later me... So, that dream never happened...
I always thought he saw me as an extention of him... I didn't say he doesn't love me but the reason I applied in that college was beacuse of him... He always told me to follow my dreams but when I told him that I wanted to study teaching or English Literature.... I would never forget that disappointed look on his face...
I didn't want to disappoint anyone but I wanted to do something for me as well.. so, I told myself whatever grade I got in my exams that should define my future...
Here is how life can be cruel...
I didn't have the grades for English lit but I did have for geting into teaching and for bussiness and tourism...
So I had to choose...
I choose what I was expected to do... As an older kid I had to made my family proud and set an example for my sisters...
Yes.. I have three sisters, all younger..
I always wanted to be a writer, to inspire with my writing and by geting into teaching, that would have helped me...
I started writing from a young age and I started writing on Wattpad at the age of seventeen when I was ready to share my work...
But I had to put all that on the side for now and finish my degree and work in tourism so I can help my family and make them proud...
Here in Greece it's hard because its in our culture, family comes first and you have to put your life in order and have a job by the time you are twenty five...
I am person who has no regrets on her life and I belive that everything happens for a reason...
I can feel that I'm meant to be a writer so I decided that I will do that alongside with the path I choose... I decided that I'm going to be a writer no matter what. I'm going to work on the field I choose and I'm going to study as well English Literature when I finish my first degree...
All in, as they say!
So, that's how all this started... I hope I get to be what I dreamed of and I hope to touch some of you to do the same... Never give up!
This gingerhead is out!
Angela.
